June 17th, 2002

Semiformalishmaybe

Very cool, very strange

Quantum Entanglement - There are so many cool effects wecan achieve by taking advantage of quantum physics. I wish I understood itbetter. Like a dinner roll, my current knowledge is just enough to make mesalivate for more.

And.. I guess I now have a new crush. Bleh. Wouldn't work out, but itmight, if only a few situations are different. Like a puzzle.. whentwo pieces *ALMOST* fit, and their colors are close enough that youthink they might. I initially liked to just jam them together.. butof course, the rest of the puzzle didn't work then. Of course, lifeisn't completely like that -- there's room for fuzziness.... butthis still is probably just too much.

There is also the undercurrent.. a clever, devious force that wantsto swallow you. You'll never guess what it's a metaphor for, andI don't really want to explain. Heh.

I actually had an energetic day.. it's very rare that I have one ofthose. I started to write another paper, and realized that I alreadywrote it some time back.. so I started thinking about some good stufffor another one.

Semiformalishmaybe

Healed

I think I've been changed by the crush I mentioned in my lastentry. Somehow, knowing that I find her to be almost a suitablecompanion makes the lingering feelings about Martha fade. Marthahasn't been in my dreams recently. Admittedly, *she* has, butthe fact that it's not Martha is a good thing. I think maybe I'mreally over Martha this time. I feel some pent-up calmness anda different kind of regret now for those times, but no longerthe fascination. So long as this crush doesn't lead to anyproblems, maybe I'm actually ready for another relationship withsomeone. I almost feel confident, and I actually feel somewhat morephysically energetic. So life, toss someone my way :) But, takeyour time -- Martha's now mostly out of my mind. Huzzah!