Dear World,Pat temporarily is a bit beyond his quota for bad events, mistreatment,and other bs. Any further things of this type will be met with a gooddeal more hostility than normal until he manages to recover his self-esteem.Excessive amounts of further pushing will likely make Pat shatter like an egg.It is very rare that Pat reaches points like this in his life, and has takena mix of extraordinarily abysmal things in almost every supporting life-area ofPat's self-esteem to reach this state, so things seen now might not resemblethe absorb-problems-like-a-sponge unshakable attitude seen in normalcircumstances.
Seriously, for only the second time in my life so far, I am invery serious need for something to go right, and for things to just get better,without too much effort I don't have the emotional energy to make spent.
One source of abuse, the greatest, is gone, albeit without even an apologyor expression of regret.. the last I heard was the equivalent to"I don't want to talk about how I'm abusing you, because I want to be ina good mood later to watch something on TV. Shut up about it, or I'll spendthe day without you". Screw that... The second source, it's still continuing,and I don't know if it can be fixed without ending that situation too (if that'seven doable). The third is probably the result of the other two, and the fourthis .. I don't want to talk about it. And then there are the little things..
Too much. Just too much....