June 27th, 2010


Dragging Fingers

I am amazed at the flow of time. Another multiple of seasons where I've walked the earth is upon me, and I am still treading very lightly in the real world. That is, it seems, the world of time - while I continue to think and dream and such, all that feels highly atemporal, while I'm hardly living. This real world thing is too painful to touch, although the things that hurt me there are needs that don't seem to reach very strongly into the atemporal self. It really doesn't feel so long ago that there was a KGB circle of "friends", and before that a Zets circle of friends, and a few smaller islands and then SFF, which is about as far back as the fog easily permits me to see - these trailing notions of self - that's about as far back temporally as I can recognise something that thinks like me. Thirty-two seems to be another null point in my life - still very little keeping me here, ideals and dreams tied to the real world are battered to the point of hardly being recognisable.

State of the 「Improv」Collapse )

Unrelated to the personal stuff there, I've recently been thinking a bit about:

  • Whether the increased rate of innovation has reached a point where generation gaps stop occurring as differences blend (or alternatively become much narrower and stronger)
  • The effects of "the people cannot be fooled because they are too awesome so cut it out MY OPPONENT IN POLITICS I AM RIGHT" style of dialogue, and how we might reverse the effects (if any) of such discourse. Ideas of cornering a politician, pointing out areas where the masses got things dead wrong in the past (over science, over artistic judgement, etc), and forcing the dialogue into a direct discussion on the matter. But then, given how idiotic political dialogue in the US is, from both the bottom-up and top-down direction, fresh air in any form would be nice. Trash the lies around people anointed heroes (from Lincoln to Mother Theresa), discuss the uncomfortable facts around how advertising and politics work, etc, all on a public stage. Almost everyone has some topics about which they've never been properly confronted, and these unchallenged ideas make them stupid.
  • How can Pesto be so awesome?!
  • How can astroturfing be shut out from public discourse
  • Bertrand Russell's ideas about Public Education (which I find to be very sensible in the most part)
  • How I might encourage my cats' occasional tendency to stand up on their hind legs to happen more often (they've shown the ability to walk a short ways in this state)
  • A project that would translate the rote/expected language in sermons (s/Baruch Atah Adonai/STDCHRISTIANINTRO/) from one faith to another to allow for substantive study of the content of prayers. Could people tell the difference between those written in the context of their faith and those written into another, without the markers? How integral is the practice and content to the standard elements?
  • How different permutations of actual cultures might be possible - are the antiscientific attitudes in hippie, yuppie, and other subcultures necessarily part of the worldviews engendered in them? Would being hardnosed about the sciences deeply transform them? (I am very interested in encouraging hardnosedness about science everywhere I can)
  • The paving-the-path versus pushing-to-win mentalities in politics, philosophy, science. This has come up a lot recently in many areas of the internet side of my life, although it being one of the great issues of minded existence, it's hardly a surprise.
Might ramble on for several hundred more paragraphs - lots of ideas that've been building up that this general quiet hasn't really helped me babble into the real ears of people - but hunger calls. Hopefully BrilleauxBox is open.