I've never been comfortable getting compliments, or, on the occasions it's happened, having fans. I've never completely understood why - it may be that I feel pressure to be popular or not to disappoint whenever people have a high esteem for me, and that such pressures often put me at ends with what I think is the right thing or the best thing for the circumstances. I can take criticism because by and large my self-esteem isn't hurt by people with different values criticising me for not living up to standards that I don't hold, and when I'm dating someone, I assume that our value systems are mutually comprehensible to the extent that I can trust them to see me for who I am and the decisions I make. For most other people people though, even close friends in many situations, giving me a compliment will make me bristle more than any criticism possibly could.
Headache is still present. Ow. Ow. Ow.
