I may fade into the background...My entry in life a detailthe Cliffs notes find too unimportant to mention..But I am not a prisoner of the lamb
The wind flows over my headIt has forgotten.. everything..I want to join itBut I am too attached to things..But I am not a prisoner of the lamb
I see happy people, laughing, huggingThey are with friends,singing to each other, song of slaves..But I am not a prisoner of the lamb
I recently had a conversation.. and yes, Gaelynn, you'reright.Gaelynn: it is that you have people youconnect with, but they can no longer be there for youand you can't find others to fill those roles
And I'm giving everything I can, when asked, and taking nothing.It's even more frustrating, because I think (hope) I've learnedto take when I need, and not to hold my breath, but I'm nowbeyond that. Learning to be honest is a lesson that is more aboutsomething else, later on the path. The surface lesson is honesty, andit's one you never learned, but the deeper lesson is, well, I'lllet you come to understand it on your own. There's am abstractionof honesty that has nothing to do with communication, I don't knowif it has a good word in English.
The ACLU called me about a week ago about an event they wanted meto attend this past wednesday... and they said they were going toemail me the info. They never sent the mail, so I didn't go..I have no idea what it was for, but oh well.Tomorrow, on Walnut Street in Shadyside, the Dean folk areholding a registration event. I'll probably show up -- it's at 15:00.
Today, on the way back from work, I noticed a Libertarian Poster..They were bragging that they're the only party that said they were forpeople keeping 100% of their paycheck. I guess it really acted as akind of measure of how far I've moved from their position -- I wasjust pissed at it. To be fair, I'm not sure if the official party positionwas ever this, and most libertarians I've known didn't believe in this..But yes, I've turned the libertarian skepticism of big government to alsoworry about big business, and I think I worry more about business thangovernment nowadays, and my green concerns became a wedge that very neatlyjammed the door open in understanding that economic interests cannotexpress other interests. Of course, the vanilla liberals are wrong on twocounts... people are still stupid, and 'rationality' won't result in allthe disagreement in the world going away. In the eyes of some Liberals,Rationality has become their mantra in the same way that Liberty is themantra of Libertarians -- a magic way to hide disagreements in a terminologythat makes it bloody hard to actually talk about them. I remember, when aLibertarian, talking with another on an issue where we disagreed -- privacy.
A: "I believe that one should be (free/at liberty) to keep information aboutanything I see, and pass that information around as I see fit"B: "I believe that part of Liberty is to be free from intrusive eyes, andwhat you're talking about isn't a true part of liberty"
If you know me well enough, you can guess which one of the above I was. Thepoint is, we were using really stupid terms for what's much more naturallythought of and talked about as two seperate values instead of aspects of asingle, complex-as-hell term. Anyhow, I'm different than I was..Hell, maybe someday I'll end up being a socialist -- stranger things havehappened, but for now, I've come half-circle, from something resemblingobjectivist-republicanism (when I was young) to libertarian (high school throughcollege), to liberal. I do, as mentioned previously, think a time will comewhen scarcity of labour will be eliminated, and at that time, a socialiststate of some kind will need to be established, or technology will be theend of our economic system. At that time, perhaps a Leninist or Trotskyistsocialism, in any case, a liberal one, might be a good option, althoughother social/economic arrangements might be worth experimenting with. Doesthis make me already a socialist? Ahh, definitions are best at capturingsimple cases.
Now, on to current events..All talk about theoretical communism aside, this has mereally pissed off. I imagine the Chinese government feels emboldened byrecent statements by BushJr that they won't support Taiwanese independance..If China were to invade, what would happen now? Hell, BushJr, is the Taiwanesegovernment eventually going to, because of your business interests in dealingwith China, be declared a terrorist organization?
Here's a novel tactic to fight for the green cause...I don't really approve though -- this is the side of the greens that'srepugnant to me, the thought that many entire ways of life and culture shouldbe legally protected... although, I have recently come to understand thefull implications of what I'm saying, and I do understand how people couldgo the other way on this. It is kind of a painful thing to decide that thatmuch culture is out of bounds for strong protection, but on this issue, Ithink it's worth it. Ahh, who are you to judge, shouts a little part of me..and to you, little part, I spit in your eye. I sympathize with the pain, butnot with you -- every decision or position we take has consequences. It'sunavoidable, and the most purile, stupid thing we could do to say things like"who are you to judge?" and pretend that that should lead us to a fastvictory in an argument. Sure, you might make someone stutter, confuse themperhaps, but all you're really doing is providing confusion -- it's not anargument.
Perhaps on-topic, France, always the country to agressively get involved inlaw to protect their way of life, is working to ban overt religious symbolsfrom schools. It's interesting though -- I feel a new sympathy for France.I am undecided if my aims of providing what Stanley Fish calls boutiquemulticulteralism is itself a kultur. It's at least an element, so gettingstuck on the terminology would be a distraction. I dream of a lot ofseperate cultures existing, in weakened forms if necessary, inside of alarge modern liberal kultur, with no ability to influence the laws, whichwould be designed and managed by some liberal folk at no obligation to listento folk from the individual cultures, who would otherwise attempt to sway themto give them strong advantage or introduce their customs into law. Thesubcultures could enforce their whims on their participants, who would alwayshave the ability to leave said cultures, and no contracts that would bindthem too strongly into said cultures would be valid. Religions and suchcould continue to play the people, but not through them the state.
Some dark humour for ya.
Here's an interesting insight into the evolution of humans -- it suggests that the development of some of the mechanisms of hearing mayhave been a watershed event, acting itself as a very slippery slope torapid advances in other areas of brain development..
Is this a balanced report on issues inIsrael? The idea of watchdog groups sounds like a good idea -- much likecopwatch in several cities here. Better monitoring of what actuallyhappens at check points should be, in theory, in everyone's interest.Having publically accessible (webcams maybe?) randomly visible coverage ofall checkpoints would provide, in many cases, good ways to know when abusehappens, and when people are abusing the system.
Here's the latest BLOG I've started reading: Ali Mohammad Abtahi.Apparently, he's one of the vice presidents of Iran.. It's interesting thatit puts a face on Iran, helps us understand things in a very different society,and that it's from someone so high up.. It's available in 3 languages too..I wonder if he's trilingual, or if someone translates it for him.
Oh, incidentally, some language nazis apparently are delighted to flex theirchicken little urges again. Of course, it's always pathetic to go afterthe dictionary as if it's responsible for new words and phrases coming intobeing. It's still funny ;)
Here's some pretty worthless technology.I honestly don't understand the big deal about gas-based fuel cells forlaptop computers -- it really seems to me to be a big step backwards.Laptops and cellphones, the two targets mentioned for the technology,whereby people get gas cannisters and plug them in, and by consecutiveuse of the fuel, can keep their stuff going for ~20 hours, are the absolutelast devices I'd ever want to require a nonrenewable power source for. Why?I USE THE FRICKING THINGS EVERY DAY. WHY THE HELL WOULD I WANT TO NEED TOKEEP HEADING TO A STORE TO GET MORE FUEL FOR THEM? It's a wonderful thing thatright now they're both rechargable, and it was a really stupid thing that myfirst digital camera was not (until I got the optional rechargable batteryfor it). So, someone explain to me why methanol fuel is a good thing, becauseI'm stumped.
Apparently the Communist party in russia is having problems holdingtogether, with an interesting divide between theories of communismtugging at it from a few sides.
So, another weekend. Apart from the Dean thing tomorrow, what to do?Hmm. I think I might head out to a more distant park, putting my carto use, and spend some quiet time just sitting. I used to do that inColumbus... walk to somewhere remote, and just sit for a few hours,sometimes with a pen and pad, sometimes without. I hope it's not toocold for that. On the other hand, if it rains, that's pretty too.