Pat Gunn (dachte) wrote,
Pat Gunn

Mirrors in Your Eyes

Yesterday... had some bad stuff, and some good stuff. Bad: I was set torun a subject through an experiment, but when I made it home to get my car,it was gone. The city didn't know where it was (initially), so I thoughtit was stolen, and cancelled the appointment. Eventually the city found it,in one of their impound lots, and I got to sink $160 in getting it back(plus taxi fares out there). Fortunately, tomorrow there's a slot that Iwas able to slide it into, so the experiment schedule won't be too upset.

I found music videos from Kil Ho Naa Ho, and would love to learn howto dance like they do. It might be notable that the kind of Indian music videosI've been seeing at India Garden are definitely designed for the ADD generation.They even have ways of moving that are half-dance, half run. Hmm.

I'm trying to decide if, with my job, I should still take the biology courseI'm scheduled for this next summer or drop it... It might be unwise to tryto balance the two, and I probably actually know enough Bio that it's notworth taking the class here.

I am presently reflecting on a new perspective on regret that was given to meyesterday. In particular, it seems that the way my mind works, in practiceregret involves looking back on decisions in the past and wishing to havechanged them. However, in situations where I've had regret, I was generallyacting with accordance to my value systems of the time, and to wish to changethe decisions equates to wishing to have betrayed that system, which is nota wish I should stomach. The only times where I think reget is legitimate, inthis sense, is when I don't follow the value system I've laid out, or otherwisedone deep reflection on my values to best try to meet them. There is, na klar,the other sense of regret, simply meaning sorrow for having been involved inthe injury of someone else, or perhaps simply having sorrow that someone elsewas injured in an unrelated way. Neither of those bear as much emotional weightas the first kind of regret, and the possible new perspective really may changethings. I will need to think about it. It seems that there is much fruitfulperspective to be gained from contact with the Tao, and while I will likely notadopt, I enjoy the ideas and am amused at the accidental convergences.

Tags: philosophy

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