Last night, when I went to sleep, I dreamed that I was on a train with a really cute girl whose eyes shone with intelligence (in the same way everyone I have ever dated seemed, and a few other people besides who I've either befriended or been attracted to). I had my arm around her, and felt deep love and happiness for her... and it came to me that I was married to her and all was good. I hated to wake up from that dream, and now I'm afraid to go back to sleep, because if she's not real, I don't know if I want to see her.
On a deeper level, I think this might be tied to how I'm kind of afraid to date right now, despite some recent opportunities. Apart from a few people I've had crushes on who I think would make a good match (and which may instead be biology overriding good sense), I am unwilling to meet new people to date because I feel that the chance of someone random making a good match for me is very very low.
I'm meeting with my future landlord monday morning to put down a deposit and sign a lease (hopefully, provided he gets it done), and I'm planning to actually begin a prorated beginning of the lease this coming friday or saturday, giving me *plenty* of time to move. I hope to get a fair amount of it moved next weekend, so I can arrange for carpet repair of my current place soon enough that I won't need to bother my landlord with even knowing it was damaged in the first place. The final parts of the move depend heavily on how quickly the DSL transition works out. Moving is actually .. kinda fun, especially the moving in part.
All in all, I'm pretty happy. Nothing at all has changed, I'm just free of cold-weather depression. Hurrah!
On the Accordion front, I've played a few times, mostly in the various parks, and I've had a ball each time. I basically play whatever comes to mind, which so far has been a mix of
- The Internationale (which I can play reasonably well, relatively speaking)
- Soviet National Anthem
- Le Marseilleise
- Deutschland Uber Alles
- Hey Unyem
- Music for the Royal Fireworks
- Other random classical music
- Ha'Tikvah (which I can also play reasonably well)
- The Entertainer (Scott Joplin's)